slowly but surely getting back into writing and posting on this blog/my personal blog. it feels really good. i’m a little rusty but i think it’ll all come back to me with time and practice. i feel a change coming on within me.
in the meantime, i’m working south by this year and i couldn’t be more excited. this is my first year going and it looks like it won’t be the last. definitely excited to experience it. for the first time in a really long time i genuinely like where i am at with most things. there’s a shit ton going on around me and i’m amped to watch it all progress.
early morning tomorrow. see you all really soon.
i just wanted to get everything out. it was out. it is gone. now to start fresh.
… a mother fucking good/cheap denim button-up. shitjesusfuck. srsly, though.
i have come to the realization that things are not what i thought they were. this whole time, i told myself that i was letting everyone else down but really it’s everyone else letting me down. friends, family… it sounds like someone trying to convince their self of something that isn’t there but this is reality. from today, i vow to be just as selfish as the rest of humanity. i vow to do everything i can to purify my body but corrupt my soul. i want to live forever and i wouldn’t mind being alone.
i’m not living a life i would have ever imagined living. i don’t know how i got here; all i know is that i need to find a way out.
fill a cup with ice, go out on your balcony, porch, street, whatever, then scream “i am jesus and these are my children!” immediately after, throw the ice and calmly walk back inside.